Jlybns Daily Adventures
Friday, May 04, 2012
I know that there is only one person in the world that ever views this page, other than me. (Which is rare for even me!) So, since I'm sure you are sleeping right now and I'm not able to talk to you, I want to tell you this: Thank you for caring about me and my needs. For putting me first. For always listening to me, and actually hearing what I say. For ensuring that I feel loved ALL the time! For wanting the best for me. For making me feel safe. For taking away as many worries for me, without me even asking you to do so. For making me feel beautiful even when I know I'm not! For loving the good and bad about me...I know I have plenty of both! And just for being who you are! I hope you are having sweet dreams right now! I love you, John!
Thursday, July 08, 2010
Emotions...I often think that I was ripped off by being made a female. And no, not because I'm gay or feel that I shoulda been of the male gender, but just because even I believe that us females are complicated as hell!!! Tell me why we have to be so complex? Why do we have to ALWAYS overthink things and just worry in general about every little thing? Why can we NOT sit down to relax without our house being spotless? Why can we not roll into bed and just shut off our brains like men always do? Why do we lie there thinking about the bills, the laundry that didn't get finished, and 12 million other useless things that really don't even deserve to be fretted about??? Why do we get emotional and wanna cry when we see something on TV that a man would laugh at? Tonight, I was watching Hell's Kitchen of all things and when Gordon Ramsey met the contestant he just kicked off the show at her cab and told her he was proud of her and she started crying...oh yeah, I was right there with her!!! WTF??? It's Hell's Kitchen...I thought to myself..."are you serious, you are crying over that?" This is the shit I'm talking about! While I know that we have a nurturing side for a reason....the extent of this hormonal, blubbering, worrying side of us just sucks ass sometimes! LOL If only we could remove our heads when we needed a break from our crying emotional selves...this woman thing might be a whole lot easier!!
That's it, I'm just happy and relishing in the fact that I don't 'need' anyone to make me feel that way...I just do...
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Letter to my son...I know that at your age you think that you know everything and that I know nothing. I know you see it as me holding you back and just wanting to "control" you, as you put it...but that's honestly not the case. Believe it or not, I was 16 once too and remember what it felt like to be in your shoes. I remember my friends and boys being so much more important than my family...heck, they would be around forever...I really needed to impress my friends, they might ditch me or make things rough for me at school, if I didn't follow in their footsteps. The problem with that whole scenario is that MOST, not all, of those so called friends will not be in your life 10 years from now. Most of those people you won't talk to after you graduate next year. Or if you do, you probably won't a few years after that. I know that you are a kid and that you just want to hang out with your friends and have fun but my problem with you is that you treat me with no respect in what used to be our home...you act as though you could really care less about me. I will NEVER forget the things you said to me the day you left. And you know what's hilarious about you leaving, is that the last straw for you was getting your hair cut. Something I was doing because I wanted to make things easier on you...I wanted you to be able to SUCCEED at getting a job and looking like a respectable kid. I'm sorry for wanting that for you. I'm sorry that I had a car for you and just asked that you get a job to pay for gas and help pay for insurance, I'm sorry that I asked that you take the trash out and do dishes every once in a while....I really am...because maybe had I not expected anything from you, had I just let you do everything you wanted...we wouldn't be in this mess right now. Had I just put up with the lying and the viruses in my computer and you taking things that weren't yours and treating Tyler like he was the most meaningless person on this planet...everything would probably be okay.
I truly hope that you are happy and that some day in the not so distant future you may stop and realize that I really did love you, that I saw great potential in you and that I knew in my heart of hearts that if you reached for the stars......you could grab 'em!!!!
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Name::jlybn123
From:::Michigan, United States
Your typical mommy of two boys, who hears the words, "he's stupid!" uttered more times in a day than I can count. All part of the program!!! LOL
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Name::jlybn123
From:::Michigan, United States
Your typical mommy of two boys, who hears the words, "he's stupid!" uttered more times in a day than I can count. All part of the program!!! LOL
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